Hello 2016, welcoming a new year, hoping for the best yet to come this year!
Been facing a lot of life challenges these past few weeks but alhamdulillah, I am still surviving till now. Well, yeah, talking bout life challenges, this wasn't my first time, indeed I think it is my 1000th time lol God loves me very much, that's all I can think about in staying strong ^^
Anyway, I'm starting this new year with positive vibes (I hope) bcs I'm trying to be calmer than before, with less useless sensitive feelings, trying my best not to overthink everything and staying stronger than ever, yeap, I am trying my best :)
Since tahun lepas takde azam, tahun ni ade azam ciked. My azams include:
- Taknak mengeluh/Kurangkan mengeluh dengan nikmat yang Allah dah bagi
- Taknak tinggal solat especially Subuh!!! Ya Allah please help me
- Taknak cepat melatah, nak hati ni lebih tenang, banyakkan beristighfar ye Azani
- Nak lepaskan Hafizul pergi keje kat Jepun dengan tenang (Kalau tu keputusan dia)
- Nak buat master leklok, nak produce at least 2 papers, kalau dapat one paper dalam masa setahun, boleh convert ke phd, please pray for me!
- Nak kurangkan mencarut especially kalau memandu kat jalan raya :(
Dan yang paling penting, nak serahkan sebelah buah pinggang kepada abah supaya abah boleh hidup macam orang biasa sehingga hari-hari tuanya. Ya Allah pinjamkanlah abah kepada kami lebih lama dan Kau panjangkanlah umurnya. Amin.
Tadi makngah dengan pakngah datang, diorang suggest buat transplant surgery instead of those long term dialysis process sebab akan makan banyak duit and can lead to other viruses as well kalau tak jaga hygiene. They said instead of bazirkan masa and amik risiko yang banyak by doing dialysis, try to ask the doctor if we can do transplant surgery. Just one go, and tak perlu ambil banyak risiko.
I have suggested it to my dad since the first time I suspect him to have the kidney failure but my dearest people here, which dad would accept his daughter's kidney for himself? Nope, there's no dad in the world is willing to do that.
But alhamdulillah, the presence of makngah and pakngah today I believe has helped a little bit in convincing my dad to do the transplant surgery. Because he is not that old, he is still young, he needs to live longer for his children, for me, at least. I need him, I still need him and I will always need him. My forever hero.
I hope Allah will ease everything for us. Amin.
So let's hope for better things to come this year and afterwards. InsyaAllah, when there's a will, there's always a way :)
Till then.
